Sometimes you just need time away...

So, last week and the days preceding were for some unknown reason quite overwhelming. I was feeling on the edge of burn out, or what I would assume is burn out seeing as how I have not yet felt the fullness of the thing they call burnout. Whatever it was I was tired, my body was sick, I wanted to cry all the time, and I felt as if there was no way to slow life down. So that's where I was Thursdat night when I packed up my stuff to head out to Canmore for the week-end. As I was quickly throwing all my things in my pack to head out I almost stopped and didn't go... but since it was planned and I felt there were people expecting me to be there I went. Friday night I couldn't sleep, my head felt like it was going to blow up, I was hot and emotionally at the end. I lay on sweet Bettina's ( who was a wonderful host) bathroom floor and just said sorry to Jesus. Sorry for not even listening to my own body and taking care of myself. I thought of ways I could get home and just lay in bed. But as I awoke the next morning that didn't seem to be the best option. So I just prayed that the best would come from this week-end and I would go slow... and I did, and the best did come. In fact better than I could have imagined. And so I have come to the conclusion that sometimes you just need time away. Time to wake up and slowly get ready. Time to get up and read your bible and journal. Time to sit by the fire place in a strangers home and be encouraged by the faithfulness of these radical people before you. Time to talk about dreams and community and of what could be. Time to be honest. Time to look at what you could be doing better. Time to be encouraged at what you are doing right. Time to think about what God has called you to be. Time to take challenges. Time to meet new people who don't know you from a hole in the wall and never will but a simple conversation that has nothing to do with work or anything of importance, but is a wonderful breath of fresh air. Time to sit in hotsprings. Time to build deeper relationships with friends. Time to enjoy Canada and the beauty that is here. Time to strap on crampons and grab ice picks and climb the wall even further than you did the day before. Time to just be... no agenda, no expectations, just being. It was wonderful. I remember a friend talking about 'kingdom time'. It is a phrase that has been in my mind this past week-end. Kingdom time. Time to just be, to move when God moves and not a minute before. It is what I long to walk in. It is something I will strive to walk in. And though I feel that in our everyday lives kingdom time is something that needs to be fought for so I will try my best to fight for it... I just may need those closest to me to remind me from time to time.